Monday, October 20, 2008

Why Melancholy...






You ask why, why the dread...well, when you live in the Northern section of the United States, there are many things to be feared. Last years winter and it repeating itself this year, is something all of us in small business dread...every year. Snowfall after snowfall, always on the weekend too, when people suffering from cabin fever will brave the cold and impossible driving conditions to seek the companionship of another WARM human being, if just to complain about the weather. This year we have the added fuel to the flame with the cost of heating fuel...will we be able to afford it. A friend just had her propane tank filled, $700.00, and I don't know about you, but that would take me all summer to save for that one.

Ice storms that dump rain, quickly frozen, on everything. You can't get to work cause the roads are impassable, hell, you can't even get you car doors open, froze shut, if you can get to your car without crawling to it. Then the branches start falling off the trees from the weight of the ice, knocking down power lines, cable lines and when the computer goes...you know real isolation. Thank the Gods for my art, I always have something to do, albeit candle light.
But there is something...if you think far back to your youth, that makes the harsh reality somewhat sweeter. The days as a child anxious for the first snow, well, for one thing, you knew it would make it so much easier for Santa to get here...but braving the cold to flounce body, full on, into those wonderful peaks that Dad just shoveled into a nice pile out of the drive. Tunnelling into the igloos of winter, to seek that sense of comfort out of the frosted airs, blowing tornadoes of frosted breath at each other, enjoying each warmed puff. It made the frozen fingers and toes, the chapped legs from the boots hitting raw skin, the constant running nose, happily wiped on a sleeve and the slamming of a snowball, dead-center into your little brother's face...ahh, yes winter as a child...
OK, enough of that crap...it is hell on earth, a beautiful hell, but one of fear that we endure each year and this year with the added economic worries of the country...what will it bring to us. Financial devastation, as everyone tightens their belts. Loss of homes to bankruptcy, credit cards maxed to pay for food and heat, construction costs to pay for damages from storms, plowing out driveways from 10 inch dumps, one after the other. You could not get me to move farther North, if you dragged me...as a matter of fact...Florida is looking alot more accessible to me right now and having a Mother living there, sweetens the deal.
But as I write, melancholy, about the coming winters LONG months, you will get some sort of a sense of anxiety in my muse...it is real and it is nearly here. But the joy of walking into the white, with my little furry friend, as the snow on my metal roof slides down at the very moment I shut the door, burying me and the furry companion, you can't help but smile...just one more day in the life...

11 comments:

Roses and Lilacs said...

Your sense of dread is infectious! Things I hate most, power outages with no heat and ice storms. Ice storms are the number one hated, dreaded, worst possible winter phenomenon.

But it is beautiful too. More beautiful than any sunny beach.

We are though northerners. We laugh at winter. Ha Ha. Inside we cringe.

Steph said...

Growing up in southern California and heading into only my 8th winter in Oklahoma, I still like winter best. Our worst enemy is the ice storms. We've never lost power though, because all of our power lines are underground. I have it easy compared to you up north.

I hope this is an easy winter for you; I'll talk to Mother in your behalf.

summersundays-jw said...

The ice storms are also the worst for us. The last 2 winters we've had horrendous ice storms like I've never seen in my 63 yrs. on this earth (& most spent in Mo. & Minn.). I'm not sure I'll ever get over the trama of laying in bed waiting for the next branch to land on the house. It makes apartment living much more attractive. Good luck to ua all!

Lisa B. said...

Would you curse me if I said I liked winter?! Oh, I hate all the same things about it you do...but I love the change of season. And oh how I love to ski...I miss Colorado in winter. There is no sun as glorious as that shinning off the mountain snow with the wind on your face as you flow down. Unfortunately we go many winters here in Michigan without seeing the sun...that's the hardest part for me. Last winter was sunny...maybe it will be again this winter. At least I won't have to mow the yard for a few months! lol.

Tea Time With Melody said...

Your pictures are great! My husband has family in Tabor and Thurman, Iowa. I don't envy you all for your long winters. Sooo much snow. The pictures I have seen of the midwest ice storms, it's just too cold to even look at. I think I'll stay here in semi warm California.

High Desert Diva said...

Your pink chateau looks lovely in the snow...but I understand your fears.

paisley said...

i do not blame you in the least for not cherishing the coming of the first snow,, or any of those that are to follow... hopefully you will find some sort of beauty to create your own warmth over the course of the season,, and if the "gods" be with you ,, the internet will remain alive!!!!!!!!

willow said...

I have that romantic view of winter. I enjoy it just as much as fall. Hope that you will be blessed with a light one this season, my bloggy friend.

bella shabby said...

Here in Oregon we don't have a lot of snow but when we do the area Shuts down.. we are used to Rain and Rain and more Rain. Just when you think you see Noah and His Ark Spring finally arrives in the nick of time. Take care this Winter , Sue

Garden Antqs Vintage said...

Sharon, I guess I long for a snow filled winter because we don't have them in my part of Texas, but...I understand your dread. Yes I too dread the high heating bill even w/o the snow. It's still beautiful, maybe it won't last that long for you!

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